Yes, I’ve watched content. All consensual. A huge misconception is that it’s all rape. Even in the circles I was in, rapists are hated. I once saw a video where an arab man was forcing himself onto a child, and the boy was screaming. I still remember the screams and they make me physically sick.
There’s boys who literally record themselves FOR pedophiles.
But just because this stuff is consensual, it does not mean I should watch it. It became an addiction, and luckily, when I was watching it, I was under 18, so it was not quite so severe, and the therapy helped me stop, as it became an addiction.
I have a therapy I see every 8 months or so. I just decided to talk to him about it.