I am a woman in my 30s. In my 20s I was extremely insecure and had a very low sense of self worth. I was shy but when I started going to bars and drinking inhibitions were very much lowered. Having a man attracted to me was an (unhealthy) way of validating my self worth. I know I have encouraged guys to get drunk so they would want to have sex with me. I have coerced men to sleep with me using my body or basically throwing myself at them. There is not much I wouldn’t do to get the guy I had in mind to want me. With the metoo movement and the conversations around it I realized that if I was a man my actions could have been considered predatory and potentially non-consensual because of intoxication. When I think about it I feel very ashamed of myself. I have lightly broached discussing this subject with male friends and they laugh it off like it is no big deal but I can’t help feeling guilty because the fact that I am a woman somehow makes it ok with society. I am embarrassed by my past behaviour and I am afraid to discuss it in real life because either I won’t be taken seriously or theres a small chance I could be taken very seriously and who knows what could happen. I know I am not the only woman to have behaved this way but no one seems to talk about it. I guess I am posting this here to anonymously get some feedback and opinions.